There is no real me: only an entity, something illusory. And though I can hide my cold gaze, and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable… I simply am not there.
American Psycho (2000)
Social Mobility (Staircase)
Elmgreen & Dragset
I am besieged by such strange thoughts, such dark sensations, such obscure questions, which still crowd my mind - and somehow I have neither the strength nor the desire to resolve them. It is not for me to resolve all this!
Fyodor Dostoevsky, White Nights
Being noticed can be a burden,
Jesus got himself crucified
because he got himself noticed
So I disappear a lot
- Bob Dylan
All my life I’ve been going around waiting for something. All my life, in fact, I’ve felt as if…as if I were waiting in a railway station. And I’ve always felt as if the living I’ve done, so far, hasn’t actually been real life but a long wait for it…a long wait for something real.
Neelam Johal for Wonderland February/March 2014, photographed by Liam Warwick